April 28, 2013
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Good Evening!
“Objection! Assumes a fact not in evidence. We’ve not established that this evening is, in fact, good.”
So…I’ve been learning a lot lately. The good news is that with all the homework I’ve had, I haven’t had to spend a lot of time with myself. I’ve had to move so much stuff into my brain so quickly, there’s hardly room for me in here anymore, which probably is a good thing. Today I had my first exam. It was professional responsibility. While it’s important, the substance of the test is not NEARLY as difficult as the others will be. So, it’s a relatively small deal.
Even still, I tried to celebrate a little that the exam was over. It didn’t work out.
Do you know that feeling you get when you’ve made a choice and you’re left dealing with the consequences, which just make you sad. Even when that choice is the right one, it’s still not easy when you feel like you’re missing out on something others have that you don’t. That feeling is where I am right now.
For me, that “choice” is not having friends. I’m not saying I can’t or that no one likes me or anything like that. It’s just that I shouldn’t. A while back I realized that (1) I don’t understand what having friends/being a friend means; and (2) that confusion makes my life hell. My life is much more manageable without the angst of dealing with humanity. I know it’s selfish. But, it’s necessary.
ANYWAY, having no friends bummed me out tonight when I wanted to go out. I felt like a celebratory drink was in order. But, my trawling the bar scene solo was not a good idea.
I realized that I’m too old to hang out at the bar near my home. Really, I’m too old for most of the bars in this college town. And, I’m out of place…I sat awkwardly on a stool by myself underneath the television playing 4 pics 1 word for nearly half an hour before I left. So, I’m sure I looked strange. Although, I did wear a bow tie. What’s life without a little whimsy? Hmmm?
So, after I tried to be cool for an hour, I failed. But that’s okay. That’s me. I’m not cool. I AAAAAMMM free, and I’m running with blood on my knees (bonus points to the person who can identify the song and artist I’m stealing from!).
It’s time now to rest…and start frantically reviewing for my next exam on Tuesday. For those of you who pray, please, please, PLEASE keep my passing the next exams in your prayers. : ) Much obliged.
Did you have a good Saturday evening?
Comments (11)
Hmmm, I am debating whether to pat you on the shoulder and say, “there, there”, or whether to laugh.
Congrats passing you test. By the way: “It was a good evening” ‘Buonasera’ as the pope says; not for everybody, but it is a subjective matter. In the case – Good Evening is a wish and not a fact.
No need to celebrate with a drink. Who said that? the drank industry for sure. Why not get a smoke,? or a good meal, or just ice cream….or nothing at all.
Congrrrrrrats!!! Awe I’d drink with ya, but cheers anyways and pray tell what is the Song?
No friends? Have a celebratory wank.
Shit did i actually just say that?
Congrats and I am sure you will do fine on your next exam. I am glad there are grad student bars and bars for people that are 25+ where I live.
Congrats on passing the test. Maybe you can find friends on the internet?
@beowulf222 - Yes.
@carlo - I agree. I don’t normally celebrate with a drink. It’s expensive for one. Although, it’s fewer calories than celebrating with a meal. The moment was just worth a small commemoration. And, all things considered, I think I achieved that. Thanks for reading!
@mellywelly15 - It’s “Kickass” as sung by Mika. It’s kind of fun: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qm9d5wAXW5c
@XtremePsionic - BWAH HAH HA! You totes did just say that…the worse part is that I opened and read the e-mail at church…and it made me laugh. And not just a little. I laughed out loud. So, even though it was really funny, I couldn’t tell anyone because: (1) I used my phone in church to check my e-mail; and (2) the substance of the e-mail was…well…you know.
@Erika_Steele - Thanks. I hope to. As long as I pass, it will be a significant victory!
@Super_Rob_of_the_Sky - The friends I do have live on the InTaRWebZ. I seem to have better luck–mostly because the rules/expectations are clearer. There’s much to contemplate when you deal with a physical human…it quickly turns complicated.
It’s good to see you. I was wondering about your absence. I knew you were probably neck deep in exams and studies. Glad the first one is over and done with. I am sure you will do very well on Tuesday too.
Is it Roy Orbison? The title of the song, ‘Running Free’?
@XtremePsionic - Oh, you are only supposed to w*** when there is something to celebrate? :-O
Good luck and I hope the brain functions at maximum capacity! Celebrations are good - being alone is not necessarily lonely.
@murisopsis - @ZSA_MD - Oh! If it were only neck deep! The song is by Mika titled from the movie it came from: “Kick Ass.” Here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qm9d5wAXW5c
@murisopsis - I forget what a wise little mouse you are. Thank you. I needed that.