Month: May 2014

  • Silver Lining

    The clouds today were quite impressive. They were the soft, lofty, puffy kind that seemed one whisper away from a thunderstorm conspiracy. But, despite some ominous signs this morning, it was sunny all day. And it seems unusually cool for May. Maybe it’s my imagination, but it feels like we’re having a proper spring this year!

    I held my eyes up toward the sky for most of the walk home from school. Eventually, though, my neck started feel stiff and I dropped my gaze. I’m back in the classes routine. I’ve started the bar review process. It seems like there’s always something new to do. There are a million things to do or manage with classes, capstones, bar review, planning for a graduation, etc. And, the prize for getting through the next few months is being…unemployed. With huge student debt. And bills. These are the thoughts that linger in my mind.

    Jut like clouds overhead.

    It was nice to see how pleasant the clouds looked today. They’re unfathomably massive, bursting and growing in dazzling fractal complexity at below-freezing temperatures. But, from an earthbound perspective, they still seem soft. And warm. And ephemeral. I guess that’s the beauty in perspective. It changes the understanding of a thing by reassessing its context.

    Hopefully this summer, the clouds will stay up (well) overhead. And instead of them crashing down on me, I’ll perhaps rise up to meet them? At least, that’s what I can pray!

    What’s on your agenda for this summer?

  • Goodbye?

    Friday was my  last day working at the UN. During the past seven months I met some incredible people. And, it’s harder leaving some than others. Also in the past week another intern, who in a lot of ways was a kind of “rock” and kind of a point of reference, left. So, basically, last week was filled with goodbyes–not only as the one leaving, but also as the one being left.

    And goodbyes are hard. I think they’re the worst.

    Almost everyone I’ve met here lives and will continue to live in Europe. The rest are from East Asia. Being from the US, that’s not an easy distance to traverse. I had resigned myself to recognizing that this would be the last time that I would see any of them. Even those from the US lived at the northern reaches of the East or West coast. In sum, I was sure that I would never see any of these people again.

    BUT! Then I thought, in a world where technology connects people like never before, do we actually have to say “Goodbye” as was once required?

    For everyone that I’ve met, I’ve made friends on Facebook. We’re (so far) on good terms. Everyone will be able to see everything that I post for like ever. So, keeping in touch is a an entirely different game. It’s like people don’t need to actually say goodbye anymore.

    Even when Xanga as we used to know it died, there were no real goodbyes between humans. Many of the goodbyes were to a platform that wouldn’t continue and to the potentiality of meeting someone on that platform that we might not otherwise. But, did anyone actually LOSE anyone? Maybe some did, but I think that was rather exceptional. The point is, I’m not sure that

    Now I feel silly that I bothered to make thank-you/farewell cards…

    When was the last time you ACTUALLY had to say a (permanent) goodbye?